kichan_3's Xanga

Graduate etc

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 11:00:37 GMT

Ho shit man.

XD
I haven't used this thing for a year. Ok, I'll try update it more often..... ^^;

Anyway, ITS SUMMER! WOOT

I dunno how things exactly are going. It feels like time's been moving so much faster than normal . . .
*sigh*
Nothing ever turns out the way you plan, feels like.
I thought by the time I reached this part of my life I'd have things figured out a little more.
I thought I'd be taller.
(I DID GROW THOUGH! only ... it was 1/4th of an inch . . . ¬_¬;; )
I thought I'd be more organized.
I thought I'd be smarter and more wise.
I thought I'd be cooler....

Truth is, I'm just as confused and lost as I was before. In fact, I'm a little worried I'm even WORSE off than before XD
Shit, that's not too good.
But I've been trying to change for better.
:)

I've been trying to find that part of me inside . . .
that part that's just me.
Not influenced by anyone else.
But its hard~~~
^^;

Its pretty funny.
I'm pretty hopeless in lot of different ways.... I get confused easily... my vocabulary's shrunk . . . I'm kinda slow at figuring stuff out most of the time . . . etc . . .

But one thing that's stayed the same in my passion.
For art or whatever.
I dunno, that hasn't really wavered much.
I mean, it has . . .
But its one of those things that when I start talking about it . . .
I get that feeling in my chest.
That growing adrenaline
the fire growing bigger
and that over flowing love and passion.

Lol, I guess it sounds retarded when I write about it,
but when I talk about my future and my dream and art, that's how I get.
^^;
Although, I'm still pretty fuzzy on what my dream exactly is . . . .

Basically, what I have is that I want to have good art.
MY opinion of good art.
and make a web comic or something of my story.
Not that I have a story out there, it's just in my head.
I keep wanting to work on it, but I can't start it yet since I'm still figuring the characters out and stuff.
But I think I'm getting closer to finding them.
:)
And me.
I think? ^^;

I just want to create something that's beautiful.
Something that makes you feel something inside your heart.
I want to make something that gives people some kind of inspiration or hope.
Or happiness, I hope.

I dunno.
I hope one day I can create something GREAT.
Something that people will look at and admire.
I feel pretty hopeless and lame most of the time.
And I hope some day I can be AWESOME.
XD

Which is a pretty big hope I guess.
ne?
Heh heh. But I want to believe that I can do it.
I dunno how long it will take.
But for some reason, when I think about that kind of thing, I feel like I can.
Even though it seems really ridiculous
or impossible for me . . .
There's just this hope.
To be honest, my uncle helps a lot.
I mean, not that he knows, I guess.

He's been like one of my biggest inspirations.
He's gotten so far all by himself.
Or well, he had help y'know?
From his friends and stuff.
But he had to make all his connections and stuff himself. He didn't rely on anyone.

And if he can, I want to to.
I don't want to rely on my uncle too much. To get me places I want to go, I mean.
If I want something, I want to get it myself.

Getting into college is one of those things I'm pretty proud of.
I still can't believe I got into that school. X3
I mean, woah.
Well, I still got turned down from some other ones . . .
But now I"m going to one of the awesomest art schools in the country.
And I did it on my own!

Or well . . . I couldn't have done it without my family and teachers and friends.
But it was my art.
Y'know?
and its not like I beefed up the pictures to make it look extra awesome.
It was just stuff I made and they liked it!
I still kind of can't believe it.
I'm really happy.

And what's even better is I'll be close to John.
:)
I mean, I kinda felt like I would be, but you can never tell, y'know?
So I'm extra happy.
I won't be alone.
And I'll be in chicago and get to see and experience so many new things . . .
I'm a little anxious but excited, nonetheless.

I'm scared to be on my own without my parents watching over me.
I've kind of never really been without them.
When I think about it, I feel really sheltered and spoiled even.
I really appreciate all of the things they've done for me.
Really.

I'm scared, but at the same time . . . I can't wait to know what it's like.
Although, once you get there, there's no turning back, eh?

It's strange to think that I'm through high school. I'll never go through it again . . .
Not that college won't be similar (even though it'll be REALLY different, somethings will be the same, I'm guessing . . .)
It's just so weird to feel like my childhood is behind me and its coming to the time where I have to grow up and be on my own.
I guess I'm just the sentimental type. heh heh.

So many doubts and worries come to mind.
Will I be able to take care of myself?
Will I be responsible enough?
Will I be independent enough?
Will I ever get it together?

Murgh.

I'm at that point in time where life seems so long . . .
Like it goes on forever.
There's an infinite amount of opportunities and chances and so on . . .

But at the same time, it feels like time is starting to speed up and it'll all be gone in a flash.

I hope I can make the best of my life.
:3

Ganbatte to everyone!
Let's make life the best it can be!

(LAAAAAAAAAAAAAME~ XD)

SENIOR OAo

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 08:22:18 GMT

Bleeeeeh.

<_<
its already fall again....
oh well, I don't wanna change my background and stuff again.
I just set it to summer.
TTATT

*sigh*
I'm so tiredish these days
I can't believe we're already back to school.
And it hasn't even been a full week yet,
but my brain's already dead.
>_<

Feels like we've been school forever already.
I'll post more later, I guess.
I'm tireds
<__<

Night~~~
( zzzzzzzzzzzzz )
V
-__-

. . .

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 04:23:26 GMT

Omg.
It's been like forever since I last wrote. ^^;
I've discovered I have this other unknown blog I didn't know about?
O_o
Its like . . .got nothing on it.
But it said:
"i am weird and if your normal . . . you are not welcome in my world."

WTF???
I didn't write that, did I???
I don't recall ever having another blog. Or saying anything like that.

Sounds angsty
and I was never angsty before! wth?

But it's my blog.
it had my info in it. O_o

wow.
Yah. Like I wouldn't say that.
would I? I dunno.

Anyway.
Yah. Sorry, I know I said comic was back up,
but I'm working on it.
-_-
Really.
I'm gonna scan stuff in this weekend.
I'd promise, but I know that's a stupid thing to do.
But I'll try!
But seriously, I feel pretty swamped with other shit
I mostly wanna work on stuff for Kawaii kon
and my story.
:3
Gonna write it in story format all this summer and next year.
And work on it 2nd sem next year for my independant project.
I might be uploading it to a web blog (prolly wordpress)
So look out for it, k?
(not that people read this anymore since I don't update. ^^;)
But just watch, k?
I'll post a link.

I also watched a super awesome movie in ani club today.
It's "The girl who could travel through time"
that's what it is in english. ^^;
Oh.
John tells me its "Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo".
Yah. :3
OMG IT'S AWESOME!!!!!!

So go watch it!
See ya guys.
Gotta work on hw.
XP beh.

Teh Comik!

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 18:44:51 GMT

Yays!
The comic is back on, peoples!
Not that people read this blog anymore... but yeah!
^^;

I have just uploaded a comic.
:3
And I have a few more that I plan to post on... Wed.
Yah.
Well, according to sched, anyway.
mon wed fri.

yes.
So reads it!
http://dotdotdotcomic.wordpress.com

I also have stuffses that I need to upload to my DevART site
^^;
But I needs to find them first.
Have fun!

Update!

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 03:35:38 GMT

Yaays!
I is updating.
:3
guess what I'm gonna be for halloween?

I'm gonna be Eruruu!
She's this char from the anime Utawarerumono.
Yeah, its kinda weird.
btw, it has NOTHING (I repeat, absolutely nothing) with the fact that that anime is based off of a hentai game. -_-;;;

She's just a really awesome char.
^_^

Yay!

Pics:

Plans

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 04:53:54 GMT

Sorry I haven't been on much. ^^;

Been planning my future a lot recently.
man, its kinda weirding me out.

And I've been kinda working on comics and stuff.
:3
I might actual do a comic/mangaish thing that has plot.
OMG!!!! OAO
Yeah, I'm still working on the characters though.
Well, and the plot. –_–
I suck at coming up with good plot.
^^;

Hm.... Oh, and I got back to updating the comic. :]p
I was kinda taking a break for a while.
but now its up.
^_^

Oh, and today I went to Hanauma Beach.
:3
Not for long though, cuz we got there kinda late.
It was fun though. We saw lots of fish and an eel swam past us.

Hope everyone's summer is going well. ^_^
>O

sigh

Sun, 27 May 2007 21:02:30 GMT

Life is completely different from what it used to be...
Nikki's transfering schools....
I told Kazu kun and Skye the truth....
John's gonna be a senior...
Everyone's moving out of Open Lab to "The Bridge". (Although, I kinda wanna hang out in both places.... )

I don't even know whether what I said or did was right....
Maybe I'm the one that's wrong.
I dunno anymore...

This year has probably been the most dramatic one ever.
And its still not over.

Yo!

Tue, 22 May 2007 08:31:48 GMT

Urgh
sorry, life's been crazy lately
Whew, good thing its almost summer.
:3

So anyway...
Yay! Pirates is coming out soon!
:D
I gots tickets.
XD
YES!

Anyway....
NOTE:
btw, if you don't like... erm... sex-related words, then don't read it, but its HILARIOUS. XD
LOOKY!
XD

Man, I haven't been keeping up with my comic either cuz of all this work....
But I shall update better over the summer
:3
COMIC BLOGSES!

I'm almost done with my ComicART100!
although... its kinda more like ComicART50....
TTATT
I only managed to do 45 pics....
:(
gawd....
*sigh*

I think I've given up for the year....

I've been workin' my ass off to catch up
but its my fault anyway cuz I was a lazy butt for so long....
TT_TT

Murgh.

Gotta work again.
Hope everyone is well....
-_-''''

Kawaii Con

Tue, 01 May 2007 04:50:27 GMT

KITA~~!
Zomg, Kawaii Con was so fricken awesome!
X3

I finally gots a kitty hat!
nyaa!
:3

I spent most of my money on other people though and in the end I ran out even though I wasn't really intending to buy very much.
>_<
Urgh. Now I know why its called "Kawaii" con.
EVERYTHING THERE WAS SO FRICKEN CUTE!!!
X3
Everywhere you turned it was like:
"Oh! Look at that!"
"Aww its so cuuuu~te!"
"*gasp* its adorable!"
"Kyaa~~~! Kawaii!"
"I want one!!! TTATT"
etc etc.

well, I shall update w/ pictures later.
but that's basically the biggest thing that's happened so far.
Oooh and for my birthday, I gots a golden box chain necklace from John.
-♥

but that's about it.
I'm falling behind in the comic now since I've been working on an English project which is REALLY big, so I haven't had much time to work on it...
I'm a little worried I might have to put it on Hiatus... ^^;
Well, it'll be back on track soon enough, hopefully.

Go read it!
. : Dot dot dot : .

Thaaaaaaaaank yous
:3

~Ki chan

Evil Fri the 13th. =_=*

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 05:33:59 GMT

Urgh.
Today was Friday the 13th.
*glares around at the Friday-the-13th-ness*
and it was a rather horrible day.
-_-'''

1. My dad got my report card. Oh. shit.
2. I probably failed another hw quiz for math.
3. I accidentally missed a class because I thought it was a different time. TT^TT
4. the whole "little bottles" fiasco. -_-'''
5. My grandpa isn't doing so well so my mom can't come home this weekend.

basically some of my friends had these little vaccine bottles that they were putting tiny origami in because they were planning on selling them at Kawaii Con (anime convention). They got the bottles from their parents who are doctors (so of course they were clean and all...)
So one of my friends had a bottle and left it in the middle of Open Lab and the teachers found it and went nuts thinking it had vaccine and stuff in it and yeah.
*sigh*
That was crazy.

but even though it was a rather horrible day, there were lots of things that made it all ok.

So I suppose that evens it out...